Now listening to : Arcade Fire, "Neon Bible"
Especially recommended : Track 6, 'Oceans of Noise'
The bassline is just so undulant. It makes me think of fish. Fish with hips. Minnows? Winnowing as they go.
I also like that it opens with a storm.
I have created, from thin air, grades for 20 essays since 4pm this afternoon. By 4pm tomorrow, I will need to create another 22. Grades from air. Appropriately insubstantial.
I feel like I will never get to an in-depth discussion of my new working definition of religion ("an ideology is religious to the extent that its metaphysics is explicit and (anthropo)morphized,") if I wait until I have time and energy to do it justice. Justice is yet another of those words that is its own opposite, I think. It implies a completion, a correction, a re-joinder. But it itself joins in. It's a new spur to more action. An interpretation, but also a text. So anyway, doing my justice is a piping dream, (hot) air through flutes, and instead I'll just take the occasional unjust stab. When I need to procrastinate.
You'll note I'm making some fairly hardcore use of metaphysics. I'm still so fascinated by the term. I take it, mostly, to mean that which one is sure is ground. The obviously unquestionable. The imaginary relation that you take to be a real condition; and everyone does that. Even scientists do that. The scientific method is so frustratingly smirky; I want to poke it, and that's always been part of my project -- not that I doubt what science has shown, just that I doubt science, as a monolith, guarantees anything. You cannot, ever, get your money back (not from metaphysics); it's not an economy of exchange. And I do not buy that science is all liquid assets. Does this make sense? Anyway, the susceptibility of science to my poking is far and away the least well-defined part of my argument, so: moving on.
Metaphysics is important to my study of religion. As the point where questioning stops, or at least changes. That's not exclusive to religion, and there are definitely scholars of religion who would hate to make that an integral part of the subject. But I will not be inviting them to my brunches. Metaphysics, the intangible but obvious; ideologies have varying attitudes towards how much of metaphysics can be engaged in conversation. The better the conversation, the more religious, and the more interest it holds for me and my irreverent eye. So if the conversation leads to explicit admission to the metaphysics ("I admit that this is so obvious it cannot be proved"), and an articulation of the inner dynamics of that metaphysics ("From the visible, we can infer the unseen"), then the conversation qualifies as a religious one.
Which means I? Can study it.
But not right now. I need to be a responsible grad student, strung between the dual responsibilities of grading and being graded. It's nice to feel needed, yeah?